The Sludgy, Dark Phase of Personal Growth

By Heather White 

Growth can be messy and uncomfortable. If left unexamined, it can seem as though you’ve drifted backwards. “How did I end up here, again?” is a common question during a growth spurt.

When we set out on our journey of personal development we’re excited. Thinking about the goals we have the potential to reach. What our ideal lives could look like. How good we’re going to feel. It’s heart opening, expansive and positive.

But the journey from here, to there, is riddled with challenges, discomfort and suffering.

Here’s why…

As you quest forward in your life, exploring the potential of who you are and what you’re capable of, what you find isn’t glorious pockets of pixie dust tucked inside you. What you find is murky sludge that’s been weighing you down. The same sludge that will continue to hold you back if you don’t release it. And the only way to ‘there’, to that life you’re dreaming of, is to extricate the sludge – get it out! It’s this part of the process of growth and transformation that is ugly. It feels horrible. You cry. You rage. You’re frustrated. You feel like crap. You beat yourself up for feeling like crap. You feel crappier. You bump up against the inner glass ceiling. You shrink back to comfort. You get frustrated with yourself and again begin the journey towards expansion. It feels horrible. You cry. You rage. You’re frustrated. You feel like crap. You beat yourself up for feeling like crap. You feel crappier. Until one day, you don’t.

The Light Always Awaits You On The Otherside  

Because once you’ve burned out that sludgy low vibration, EVERYTHING is different. Your entire world is enlightened. You’re brighter. You’re lighter. You see more clearly. You’ve successfully cleansed your lens of awareness and now, your life looks different. And above all, you feel amazing. Because feeling amazing is the payoff we need in order to fill back up before we head back out into the field of growth. 

 “Spiritual progress is like detoxification. Things have to come up in order to be released.” Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

Heather White works as a Coach and Speaker, navigating the route for high-performing women who want to live authentic, courageous, liberated lives.  

"Through it all, I remain fascinated by people and their potential, especially when they’ve found success but are at a loss with why life doesn’t feel like a total win. Moved to help them find what’s missing, I advocate for authenticity and listening to the voice within".

-Heather White